Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i just died, of a heart attack.
okay, i'm seriously lamely playing.

my uncle just passed away,
and no, i'm not playing this time.

and somehow, i don't know how i'm suppose to feel, there's this heavy feeling thats undescribable and well, i guess my sister got me thinking about the "what ifs" , the " what nows" and whats going to happen to my aunt and cousin since he was the sole breadwinner.

i wasn't THAT close to him, but i always remembered him as someone really nice and all. Cheery and all. We were pretty close when i was young, and along the years we sorta just got busy with our own lives.

And now its just so very hard to picture him gone, its like i don't feel the huge pinch yet, its not that i don't feel anything, its just that i'm sure reality hasn't kicked into my brain yet and well, i'm prolly just avoiding that fact like how i always do. I avoid it and sink into denial till the very end. How very stupidly dumb, i know. But i'm even avoiding that fact, okay, i need serious help. No, I need sleep.

A lot of bad stuff being falling all at once and we all hate it how when bad things come all at once and never seem to end. It hard to absorb everything all at once and so i will just let my brain lag, as usual and take it all in slowly.

But there's one thing that i'm thankful and its that i found my wallet.
Yay?
Ya, okay, yay.

And here's to someone special thats going through a hard period in her life too:
Faith babe,
I'll be here for you always, i'm sorry i've not been there for you as much as i promised and i just hope you will be strong and i promise, i will visit you every moment i have, things will be alright. the Faith i know is strong, the Faith i know will stand strong when everything falls. love you babe. <333

oh and to add on to all this shit,
You're not here,
Your words are still ringing through my head,
You're gone,
And i'm going through withdrawal of You.

and thats what bugs me the ~~most.~~

this is such a pathetically boring lame post.

whatever, oh how i hate this word.
but really, whatever,

today is just fucked up.

chiming in apogee,
the road signs reading bitter end

8:16 PM

Mine

Rant rant rah rah

Thanks

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

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